Sketch 132: Really and Truly
Really and truly
I have no clue
why to this day
the sight,
the sound,
and smell of you
still makes my heart jump
between nostalgia, anger, and paranoia.
It's not you
I mean, not the "you" you.
Only the image left behind.
You are fine. Most always were.
It's me, and I'm fine most always
until you appear in the oddest places
with the friends I call friends
friends who have more connection with you
than I do or probably ever did
and that saddens me, which angers me
(because I don't know how to deal properly with sorrow),
that what may have been was just hollow, hollow, hollow....
I should stop writing when I'm tired....
Maybe I can't let go.
Maybe I have and regret it.
Maybe it's because you seem fine without me.
Maybe it's because I missed an opportunity.
Whatever it is, I wish it would go
'cause I'm fine and so are you.
better apart than together
I wish we could be friends,
but as Zile said,
"Boys just make things awkward."